ANKITA PUROHIT
Writer | Storyteller
About Me
Where shall I begin? Hailing from Udaipur, Rajasthan, I come from a family of writers, poets, not as a profession but as a creative outlet of those who were professors, holding a master's degree, a Ph.D. in chemistry, Sanskrit; engineers, doctors, and so on. The family is elite, very well educated from top universities in the country, and respected. Mediocre like me doesn’t really fit in, in such backgrounds where one needs to prove their worth through academic scores.
I could manage to get a post graduate degree in computer science, but ended up being a website content writer in SEO field, and eventually self-expression. It wasn’t that I didn’t know how to write computer codes. It was, I couldn’t convince employers enough that I knew how to. Having an intellectual mind is separate from how you carry yourself or represent. This shallow world encourages those who market themselves well, and whether or not they truly are what they show is an entirely different story.
Sometimes I feel I just don’t conform to this perfectly flawed society. The more I grow in age, the more I back off from chasing humanity. It just makes no sense in my world why people put on masks and pretend as someone else to the point of dissociation.
Long ago, I withdrew from even initiating to stay in touch with those who were genuinely good or convinced me that they were. Pushing them away has been my way of self-preservation despite the connection may have potential.
When I left my job from a corporate organisation, I had to find an outlet to channelise my thoughts, else I would have reached to great lengths of madness. When the world seemed to reboot itself at the time of the COVID-19 pandemic, with no active job in hand, and alongside personal/health crises, my racing thoughts would have reached crazier routes if I hadn’t created a website with a blog section for myself.
Since I have been doing self-discovery for years, I know others might be struggling too. I know it's a lonely place to be, being that black sheep. People who feel deeply are alone in this journey because the rest of the world chooses emotional numbness. I might be someone rare who cannot un-feel it. Therefore, everything I experience is documented with an intent to motivate others, some of which are published here. Want to know what kind of content I write?
What I write about
Psychology . Relationships . Parenting . Personal Growth . Life Experiences . Women Empowerment . Karma . Personality & Astrology . Health .
Understanding Ourselves
I am curious about human behavior. I try to understand why people behave the way they behave. What their motivations are to act in a certain way, what my experiences with people have been, what lessons I learned along the way, and how I have navigated my life based on such encounters.
The Things Life Doesn't Prepare Us For
I've had difficult life experiences such as years of struggle to get pregnant and a miscarriage, and dealing with people who would often ask awkward questions about why I didn't yet mark the checklist of parenting. I handled all of it, and I am here to help people who feel alone in their journey. People who don't feel a sense of belonging because society is too preoccupied in its little world of constant approvals that it forgets that not everyone experiences such blessings, at least in a way they might expect.
Parenthood & the People We Become
After years of struggling to conceive, when I finally became a mother, there was another horizon of understanding the dynamics of parenting. Our generation encountered toxic environments more often than emotional availability and nurturing. Therefore, as someone who has been clueless about what gentle parenting looks like, I keep learning whatever situation life offers and share those experiences.
-> Explore Parenting
Exploring Consciousness, Meaning & Personal Growth
I have been an introvert and shy since the beginning. Due to years of regular humiliation, I developed Social Anxiety Disorder. This led to being dismissed, cornered, and rejected in situations where I needed a sense of belonging. I couldn't crack job interviews either due to the same reason.
Doing heavy inner work, self-reflection, questioning my self-worth for years, on top of the loss of a loved one while still comprehending life, resulted in a profound interest in concepts like Quantum Leaps, Karmic Cycles, The Butterfly Effect, The Law of Attraction, and so on. I don't consider myself an awakened one but someone who is steadily moving in that direction.
Exploring Personality Through Astrology
Since I have been reading Zodiac Sun Signs, Moon signs, and Rising/Ascendent for over a decade, this is yet another area of interest that compelled me to write blogs under this dedicated blog category. I have covered general traits of all 12 Astrological signs, including the fictional characters from television series, and I will keep posting more and more.
Women, Gender & Society
Having witnessed older generation women in so many families doing their unpaid jobs almost to the point of slavery, the expectations to continue doing that without complaining resulted in changing my outlook on how I see equality when it comes to gender roles. The privileged gender remains oblivious to their privileges, which baffles me. I put the spotlight on the assigned roles and look through a logical lens on the root causes of such circumstances and how to make a better world if everyone works collectively.
More such topics to uncover under: Health, Workplace, Content Writing
